Depression.

Depression is a long and hard struggle- some come out with scars and no tears left, some come out a better person all round, and some don't come out at all. 

Depression has been my life for a little over a year and a half. It seems a little odd and confronting to put this up on the internet for you's all to see but, I've missed blogging so much, but my head hasn't been in the right place- until just this morning- at 2am, my best friends father passed away after a four year fight with an illness caused by asepsis. He was an amazing man, inspiring and strong and bloody hilarious. He put up with the midnight giggle attacks and 9am wake ups from my friend, her littler brother, my older brother, and I to watch and support our soccer. From him i've always found that new sense of life they talk about in the movies, you know- wake up everyday like it's your last and always remember to laugh? 

From him I drew my courage to write this, 

to return to blogging, 

to make him proud and to show everyone that it's okay- it'll always be okay

(which coming from me sounds completely crazy- I have depression and can still say this, because I hope with my heart of hearts it'll be true, and I know it will- it's up to me to make it true, and to all of you to make whatever you what in life work out.)

Leave any questions below, or on my twitter here.

I love you's all dearly! 

hugs, kisses and best wishes,

- Amber May xxo

*AUSTRALIA ONLY* 

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My Vowels to you.

Hey guys, I hope you're all just as excited for as I am for a new month in a few days!

I was going to do a review of the songs off Sleeping With Sirens new album Feel that are out, but decided I will do a whole album review once it's out (June 4th- help me.) Instead, these are my blogger vowels to you.

1) I will always love each and everyone of you.

2) If you have a question, I will try my hardest to get back to you asap.

3) Nothing will ever be too little for me to care about.

4) I will always be into music and letting you now what I love.

5) I will be as honest with you's all and share my stories and experiences with you. ( manners please, guys.)

6) I will never stop having my say. (good thing, or not?)

7) You can use me as something you've read to extend your vocabulary for English.

8) I probably won't ever stop using words you have all loved; Fancy, Lovely, Funky etc. (or is it ect?)

9) One day I will find out whether it is etc or ect. 

10) No matter what, I will always be a fangirl.  

In regards to number 10, I think I need to start watching every season ever of Supernatural? 

and with that, I say I Do.

Song;  Son Of A Gun- For The Foxes.

My friend got two new bracelets, and I took this (iPhone) for her Instagram.
I love it.

Hugs, kisses and bets wishes,

-Amber May xxo

Kids With Cancer.

I'm about to rant, but for a good cause. 

Princess Margaret Hospital is my local (I say local, but I mean Perth, capital city of WA) children's hospital. They deal with everything, but something that really, I guess, touches me, is the cancer wards. There are so many rooms, filled with kids who have cancer and it amazes me how positive they all are.

When I was in year 7 (2011) my aunty, who was my best friend in the world, was diagnosed with a type of cancer. 
I can remember the day, I was there before she was sent to Perth, I was there when everyone was crying because we all knew, but didn't want to say it aloud. 
This is something I would never wish upon anyone.It's so heartbreaking, and I'm tearing up just writing about it. 

I can not even imagine what it would feel like if she was a child. 
I mean, someone so young with so much ahead of them- being diagnosed with what could kill them?
Troye Sivan, a local (again, from Perth) youtuber gave himself the task of helping these children out.
He wrote a song about the book "The Fault in our Stars" by John Green.
Then, he filmed the video at PMH.
Lastly Troye posted it, and every single cent of sales for this song goes to the hospital and their work.

I was so moved by a young boy, helping out these kids.

It is seriously the most adorable and inspiring thing.

Help out if you can and give Troye a sub on YT for more of his amazing singing and kindness!

Donate-  every cent matters to someone.

Buy the song on Itunes or Bandcamp  and all the money also goes to the cause. 

Song: 

All About Us- He Is We (feat; Owl City)

*Sorry, no photography with these, but I think the cuteness of mr. Troye makes up for that! 

Hugs, kisses and Best Wishes,

- Amber May xxo

Conformity

Hello all you lovely people!

Today, I'd like to talk about conformity. 

For those of you who don't know what this means, Conformity is the act of matching attitudes, beliefs, and behaviours.

So basically it is changing yourself to fit it and be accepted by others. 

I have had a very recent case of this where I have been told that I am wrong for an opinion. (Sorry, to my friends reading this who are involved)

I am going to see One Direction live 138 days (28th september, for those in Perth also going!) for the Take Me Home Tour. 

At school, we were discussing concerts and I brought up that I am going. 

Everyone immediately asked why I would go, if I liked them, and told me they were 'gay' and 'have no good songs'. 

My first reaction was to explain that yes, I like them but aren't a crazy fangirl over them. 

Then, I thought why was I going to defend myself.

I just wanted to fit in with their opinions. (I went on the defend the boys- yay)

You do not need to fit in and be like anyone else.

It isn't going to get you anywhere.

No matter what you want to become, being remembered is how you get there.

Standing out is such a good thing, being a bit quirky and different makes you much more interesting. 

Song- 

Augie Nieto- Five For Fighting. (I love how strange and sweet it is)

My best friend, is weird.
But that is why I love her.

I won't be having set days anymore to post, as school is becoming crazy. 

Follow my twitter, tumblr or my blog (of course) to be notified when I do update.

(Still 1-2 a week, and maybe more..)

Hugs, kisses and best wishes,

-Amber May xxo

Ready for the Winter Months.

Ready for the Winter Months.

Hello, all! 

If you follow me on Instagram, you will know I have acquired (do people still say that? anyway, I got some) new shirts.

2 of these I have "stolen" form my brothers closet and he has so much style and I love, love, love his clothes! 

The other one (the Nirvana) I brought whilst in town to buy a pair of jeans..which I didn't end up finding.

Also, on this shopping trip I saw a boy with a Pierce the Veil shirt on, and wanted to marry him.

*Mind the fact he looked about 12.

Is it okay to wear your brothers clothes? If so, what kinds of made-for-guys clothes do you adore this season? 

Song-

Dreamers- Jack Be Nimble Band

Hugs, kisses and best wishes,

-Amber May xxo